why i must live if no one cares

I feel tears streaming down my face,

when I look in the mirror, I see me.

I walk past the tables draped in lace,

I want to leave this place, I want to flee.

I dont belong here.

I walk to the room where it all started,

I've done this a million times, yet my parents still fear.

They still dont know that our relationship has parted.

Talking is a waste of breath,

Living is just a waste of death,

So why cant we just choose one?

My only option is to be done.

I lock the door,

and approach the shower.

I take out my old friend and sit on the floor,

she still cuts like a thorn from a flower.

I smile to myself for no one is home,

I look at my arms,

Such a beautiful sight,

All of my misery has been washed away.

My old friend slowly drops,

as i realize my mistake,

Why use a knife if you cant cut the crop?

My friendships, my loves,

Yet now I fear.

The memory of me is fading.

And Now I realize,

that this isn't a fashion statement...

This is just my own fucking deathwish.